Here are a few more thoughts on how I think the blog and working in the home really shaped my understanding of who I am as a Mother.
~First I will say that in KG's family, (of whom I mentioned falling for immediately), the mum's generally stayed home and practiced the art of making a home. Before KG and I even started trying to have our own lil monster, I had professed my love and desire to be a stay at home mum. However for that to work we knew that eventually I would need to find a way to make a little bit of money from home and make staying at home help save us money.
Now these days, My yoga instructor often says "don't make a picture, feel your asana ...be the posture"I can use that metaphor looking back now right Before and during the pregnancy, I definitely had a picture of "mother"I was to be(not so consciously I suppose). That pictured melted away as I nursed in the bed and gazed at that perfect little Gordon nose for hours; I felt terrified but completely new. I realize now, none of the pictures were of me and him.
belle and burger started as a way for me to visualize us and me as a Mother. He was the perfect child for me and I was the perfect mother for him in just the everyday-ness of it. Without Him there would be no belle and burger; Burger inspires me, disciplines me and forces me to focus and make choices about what is important for myself and my family. I feel like my child has helped to tame and calm me. He gives me unbounded confidence and humbles my sometimes quite cynical view; giving me soft eyes. Being his mum makes me more aware of who me is. Through the blog I can share the fruits of our connection with others and as a ongoing interactive record for my family
Answering these questions really stirred me and reminded me how truly blessed i am and for that I thank you.